I wish there were career fields in being too nice.

occasionally I’ll do mystery shops for extra cash. very rarely because with all the interactions you have to do and how much you have to remember (names of people you talked to, if they did this or that and did they have this signage up and blah blah) it pays pretty badly, but tonight I did a tobacco audit one for a drugstore. I had to buy a food item and try to buy cigarettes without an ID, then leave, fill out a pass or fail letter, and bring said letter in to the manager. I’m 22 but look like I could still be in high school so I figured it’d be easy, they wouldn’t sell them to me, and I’d get $10 for 2 minutes of my time plus a free diet coke.

the cashier just asked for my date of birth after I said I was ID-less. so I bought the cigarettes (which I now have to hold onto for six months for some reason?) and I filled out the fail letter and gave it to the cashier when I came back in to give to the manager. and then I realized he may have just thrown it away so I called the store and double checked that the manager got it (talk about awkward 4 second conversations) and then felt (and still feel) awful for ruining some kid’s night and probably got him written up and the store in trouble with their corporate and everything even though it’s not my fault that he didn’t follow the protocol.

for 2 minutes of my time it sure paid well but seeing as how I just ate four slices worth of my sister’s red velvet birthday cake from yesterday in less than a minute over how bummed I feel… blahhh. 

no1curr
4 months ago 4 notes


 

day 25: something that you’re currently worrying about

theology/doctrine/faith

to be specific:
what exactly do I believe and does it hold water and if it doesn’t what do I do and

what if (?!) I adopt a set of beliefs that don’t reflect the true character of God and follow a caricature that makes me confortable based off my emotions and thoughts for the rest of my life,

and on the other side of the coin, I adopt useless, pointless legalism and rules that couldn’t be further from the heart of God,

and I know there’s an in between that isn’t static, but constantly moving and changing and growing and humble and yet doesn’t worry about any of this while the process of molding and growing is happening and I know that God probably doesn’t care if I don’t follow calvinism or get this or that theological point right cause it all comes down to jesus and all but finding that happy medium of just being grateful for grace and loving and living is starting to become elusive.

30 daysholy run on sentence batmanno1curr
1 year ago